Sat, 17 Jun 2017 08:02:02 GMT
Father, it's almost 3:00 in the morning and I can't sleep. I need to talk to you. First, I ask that you please comfort Mr. Rickard's family as they mourn his death. I also ask that you comfort all persecuted Christians around the world, especially in the Sudan. Bless Denison and his family, and be with Pedro and Karol as they start their new life in your kingdom. Help Randal and Vicki as they minister to others and tell them about Jesus. Help Joel's family to have a smooth transition in their move, and for VIsas and paperwork to be provided quickly without extra financial stress. Thank you for answering these prayers.
Father, my heart is sad this morning because I am not at peace with you. I'm going through the motions but my heart is feeling distant. Not a lot, but any distance from you is too much.
You know what's wrong. I've been trying to deny it, but now I want to be honest. I've been angry with you about Peanut. Like so many other things that have happened that I don't understand, why did you let such a horrible thing happen to him? Why did it have to be so brut al? Why didn't you let any of us see him or hear him in the car? I know he was not a person; he was just a little dog, but he was mine and I loved him. He was so sweet and never hurt anyone.
Even though I don't understand, I will trust you, Lord. You are good and perfect and you take no pleasure in the death of any of your creation. This world is imperfect and fallen because of sin. It isn't your fault. Someday Jesus will come back and take us home. This kind of pain will not be there.
Please forgive me for being angry with you. That was wrong. Just like Vicki said last night, I have to let this go. I have to give it to you. So I lay little Peanut at your feet and ask that you take care of him. I don't know what happens to animals when they die, but I have to believe if you care for every sparrow that falls from the air, then you will somehow gently take care of the beloved pet of one of your children.
Help me to let this go. To not lie awake anymore wondering what I could have done anything differently to save him.
Please restore the joy of my salvation, and direct my steps today. Thank you for loving me.