Thu, 16 Mar 2017 03:55:00 GMT
I am not feeling well tonight. I was sure that whatever I have would have gone into remission by now. I was so sure. But it hasn't and in some ways I feel a little worse. I think stress is a factor. It's a little nuts because I get anxious and stressed about being sick, and then anxiety and stress make me sicker. Help me to learn to manage stress and anxiety in a better way. I know you say to cast my cares upon you, but I need you to show me how to do that in a better way. I don't think I've ever done it very well.
I ask that you please take this illness away, or at least let it go into remission. There are so many things I want to do. I feel a little weird asking that because it sounds like someone buying a lottery ticket and telling you they will do good things if they win.
But you know that is not my heart. You know I want to do short term missions this summer, and help with other things as well. I was asked to help with VBS, but with my fatigue level, that will not happen either unless I am better by June.
But maybe you have other things in mind for me to do. There are lots of ways to share your love that don't require a lot of energy. So , Your will be done. I mean that. I've learned over and over this past year that your way is always best, even if it doesn't seem like it at the time.
Maybe there is a reason You are allowing this to happen now. Maybe you are teaching me something that will help me when I share with others, or maybe just teaching me to be patient and wait on You. Whatever it is, I thank You because you will make something good happen from all of this.
Thank you for letting me complain, Lord. It's better I do it with you than someone else. You understand. You love me and have all the time in the world to listen. What would I do if I didn't have you in my life? I wouldn't make it. I love you, Lord, and I'm so thankful that you are a good Father who listens and comforts your children.