Sat, 29 Jul 2017 23:36:09 GMT
Father, thank you for guiding me to truth, for being gentle and patient with me as I work through so many lingering beliefs that differ from those of the church.
Through a lot of study this week, I've come to realize I've been wrong in my premillennial beliefs. I've been spiritually blind. I was so sure of it all. It was part of my spiritual make-up, but I see now that it was a wrong part, and I thank you for removing it.
There will be no Rapture, no Anti-Christ, no Armageddon, no 1000 year reign. I've believed a lie for decades because I trusted in the word of, and false teaching of, people and a few random Bible verses.
I don't quite know how to handle this new information, whether to be angry or glad. Really, for now I just feel sick, but at least now I know the truth.
The realization that I've been wrong about something so important as this doctrine leaves me with a somber emotion somewhere between sadness and anger. It feels a little like grief as odd as that sounds.
Mostly I feel sorrow for believing a lie that goes directly against something Jesus himself tau ght about His kingdom. What an insult to my Savior! I am so sorry, God. Please forgive me.
Thank you for opening my heart and mind, and giving me understanding to see your truth.
I know I am doing the right thing by giving up this belief, that it is sin and offends you, but I feel a little disorientated like something is missing.
Don't let the enemy use my emotions against me as I adjust to this new revelation from your Word. Thank you for holding my hand and guiding me through another change in my life.